God why them and not me?
When I was single I was determined to have life happen my way. I dreamed of being a wife and having children ever since I was a child. When all my friends were married and having babies, I felt left out. What about me God?
Waiting for God to give me the desires of my heart was painful. It was taking Him too long. I ached and worried. I thought I knew what was best for me. I convinced myself that marriage would make me a happier person and having kids would complete me.
One day I decided that I was not going to wait for God to bring me my husband. God was not living up to my expectations. I decided to live my own life and I ignored Him.
I spent years in want and I slept in darkness. I did things my way and still God stood beside me waiting for me to be still, but I didn’t pay attention until I was broken.
My way wasn’t working. A matter of fact my way didn’t get me what I wanted.
I hungered to belong to something bigger than myself. I wanted to matter and have value. Instead that someone and something I thought was so great almost destroyed me. I became a slave to sin.
No matter where we are in life we have wants and we want things done in our time. Maybe you want a child, but your body won’t cooperate. You might be upset because you have not heard about the job you just interviewed for. You might doubt that you heard from God because the adoption papers have not been approved yet.
Waiting is hard, but I’m here to tell you that God does come through. I’m married with two beautiful children. I didn’t get married until I was forty. It has been a long wait and I didn’t handle waiting very well. But I want to encourage you to seek God and believe in Him while you are waiting.
God has His reasons for the way He does things. Be still and know that He is God. Don’t try to get ahead of Him. Listen for His voice to guide you. He wants you to be obedient and to trust Him. Don’t give up hope when you see others receiving what you been asking for, because He has a plan for you too.
I felt joy in my life when I stopped searching for my significance in others and happiness in my accomplishments. Peace filled my life when I rested in the knowledge that I belong to God and He created me to be in fellowship with Him. When I realized that I was no longer alone, God brought me my husband.
God waited for me to seek Him first in all things before He gave me children. God has His reasons for making us wait. We must trust Him and be obedient while we wait.
Be Still And Know that I am God. Psalms 46:10
Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. Matthew 6:33
Your turn
What have you learned about yourself and God while waiting for your prayers to be answered?
What a beautiful and honest post. Thank you!
I also greatly desired to be married and be a mother when I was younger. I was tremendously blessed to marry a godly man when I was only 23 (I expected to have to wait much much longer… yet I too struggled with waiting, even though in hinds sight the time was so short.)
I have found that we will always have to wait for something. Now I’m married with some children, I could list a number of things I yearn for… but your last Scripture says it all: We must seek God above ALLLL else.
Thank you for the reminder today!
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Adelaide,
Thank you for stopping by today to read my post and leave a comment. Yes we must seek God above All Else. Today i was really struggling with tiredness. I had to stop my day to day routine and go to my quiet place and wait for Him. I needed to be in communion with Him. I felt a leading to look up scriptures about finding strength in God. And sure enough, His word moved me out of my funk. It’s amazing to me how meditating on God’s word, worshiping, and praying, can really change the course of my day. God always provides exactly what we need and when we need it.
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Lisa thank you for your transparency. You asked what I had learned in the waiting…
I learned that I don’t always do it well. That God has a plan if I will wait, I will be the happiest. That most of us are waiting on God to move in one area or another. I am not alone. Glad I stopped by! God bless
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Thanks so ,much for stopping by. And it does feel good to know that we are not alone on this amazing journey called Faith! Blessing to you!!
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I’ve learned that God sometimes opens doors you’ve waited for and then moves you quickly on…unexpectedly, so that He can bring even better things into my life. He keeps showing me that He can be trusted! Thank you for sharing more of your story with us.
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Love love love this. I have learned that in the past, way too often I decided to take matters into my own hands and that I struggled more than necessary because of it. Thank you for the reminder to be patient and trust Gods perfect timing. So encouraging and necessary ❤
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There seems to be a theme on posts I’ve read today. I wrote one as well about Losing Faith and about Finding Your Way Back To God. I love that what may seem like a tragedy today turns out to be for our good tomorrow. Sometimes it is hard, in the moment, to remember God’s got this. But who better to have it then him?
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I forgot to mention I found you over at Equipping Godly Women. ❤ your post!
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Thank You Hope for stopping by. I’ll have to check out your post. I’m glad God is in control.
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I can relate to this post so much. Waiting is really hard. I know that we should not just wait but we should WAIT (in expectation) but I didn’t always accomplish this in my life. Thanks so much for sharing !!!
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Yes, Wait in Expectation! Thanks Rebecca for coming by today!
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