The chair sits in our living room. It’s so ugly, old, and well-worn. It truly must be from the seventies. It has an old mosaic pattern that is actually so old, that the pattern is now back in style. Except that this chair is still hideous. I could replace it, and hopefully, some day I will. But for now it stands as a reminder of the life that I have chosen, a life full of chaos and kids. It’s a life that doesn’t even have much time to shop for a new place to sit.
There are days that I hate that chair. It stands for everything that I don’t have, that I want and desire. The days that I have bitten into the lie that money would indeed buy me happiness, contentment and an easier life. It’s on those days that I want to chuck the chair to the curb.
One day I realized that I needed to accept the chair for the time being. I came to the realization that our home is not full of what many would say are valuable things. It is full instead of the things that matter to the soul and give our house life. Peace and joy reside in this house. And that is what truly matters.
I realized that I need to stop looking at what I don’t have and count the good things in my life. It’s about being content, right where I am at. There is beautiful life happening all around this house. An old proverb says this: “Better a meal of vegetables where there is love than a fattened calf with hatred.” (Proverbs 15:17).
There is love happening right here in these walls. Kisses and hugs are given freely. Messy mouths and dirty diapers are taken care of. Tummy’s are fed. There is plenty of laughter and joy in this house. My kids eyes sparkle when we sing silly songs and have impromptu dance parties. We don’t love perfectly, but we love fiercely.
Many days I have despised that chair. It has stood for everything I have wanted but don’t have. But I’m choosing right now, in this moment, to embrace it all. I want to embrace being a mother of three crazy kids. And for now, that includes embracing that humble chair. I would rather have a million ugly chairs where love is, than to have a mansion full of beautiful things without love. I choose laughter and joy to be what I adorn my house with. And that makes this house a beautiful place to be.
Kortney Stanis is a wife and mom to three wonderful kids. She is passionate about vulnerablity, community,prayer, and the Word of God. You can find her @kortneystanis or where she blogs regularly at www.vulnerableprayers.com.