It’s Not About You
“It’s not about you!”
I felt my heart sink as soon as I said it to her.
Sure, that kid has been struggling with weeks now with a selfish attitude that has spiraled out of control. She has clawed, grabbed, screamed, and pouted to try getting it to go her way.
But then again, so had I…
This familiar little vision of blonde hair and brown eyes staring back at me was reflecting far more than just my appearance in miniature. She was reflecting my heart.
The whole crew of mine seems to be going through something right now. It’s been getting ugly far more than not lately. Raised voices and hurt feelings.
Mostly those were mine.
They were going through something and I was getting offended. As my babies all start pushing on the boundaries at the same time, I find myself reverting to a “get it under control” mode.
I didn’t want them doing that. I can’t believe they would think that’s okay. I don’t want to hear another word about it. I just want y’all to Stop It!
“It’s not about you!”
My own voice echoed in my head and my heart sank.
Because I was making it all about me. All about the ways it was bothering me. All about the way it made me feel. All about the way it made me look as a parent.
It’s not about me. It’s about God.
It’s always about God.
So no, their hearts aren’t in a great place right now, but neither is mine. Before I can get low before my kids and help them turn their hearts to God, I have to get low before my God and turn my heart to Him.
I have to stop clenching tight my ands and let go of the armor of control. My battle is not with my kids. My battle is for my kids. And with my God? I am more than a conqueror.
So I put on the clothing that he asks of me. And I move forward with my eyes fixed heavenward. Because it’s not about me. It’s about Him.
“Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience,” Colossians 3:12
I like to share about all the glory that God shows me over at my blog kayliehodges.com. I write about faith, family, and funnies. I love to listen to stories, and tell tales of the beauty from ashes that is adoption, and often motherhood in general. I am currently working on a book about sharing lives and sharing faith!