“And now, O Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in you.”
~ Psalm 39:7
You know that moment? That pause, the intake of breath right after you jump and hang in mid-air, before landing in cool water. That’s what life feels like right now. I’ve taken the leap, stepped out in faith. I’m filled and I’m waiting. For what am I waiting? I honestly don’t know.
One of the joys of living for Christ is that I don’t have to have all the answers, I just need to know the One who does. I don’t know what tomorrow holds, I don’t even know how today will end. What I do know is that whatever comes my way is not something I have to face on my own. The Lord goes before me and stands with me always. My hope is not in my circumstances, but in God.
Right now, it feels as if life is hanging in mid-air. I’m waiting for something, but the Lord has yet to reveal what it is I am waiting for. My first instinct is to be anxious. What if the something isn’t good? What if this is another trial coming ‘round the bend? What if, what if, what if…
Instead of focusing on what I don’t know, I need to focus on what I do know.
No matter what this year holds, God is with me. No matter what trials are coming, God is there. No matter what my family may go through, nothing can separate us from the love of God. I do not know, but God does. I merely need to wait upon Him; trusting and hoping in His power.
Often, we mistake hoping with wishing. It is something we think upon but nothing to be relied on. Hope is so much more! Hope is believing with expectation. Our hope is in Him, fully believing He not only listens, but will meet our need.
I may not know what is coming, but my hope – belief with expectation – is that God has it covered. So, I wait. I hold my breath, ready for the moment of impact. The initial shock might startle me; it might take a moment to reorient myself. Then, peace that passes all understanding will settle and God will raise me to the surface once again.
No, I don’t know what this year will bring. But, I know the One who does. And in Him I put my hope.