Meeting new people makes me anxious. I’m not one of those people who will go up and introduce myself to you. I’m definitely not the first one to raise my hand for a turn to talk in any group setting.
I look for the nearest exit when someone heads my way to talk to me. I feel myself get hot, limp, eyes go blurry and my thoughts get fuzzy. I’ll check my phone or look for my keys if someone I don’t know gets too close.
I’m quiet around my group of friends. I listen more than I talk. I’m just too scared to say it.
I’m so happy that we have the option to text because when I talk on the phone I feel myself go numb.
God Calm My Anxious Heart.
I think that I’m stupid.
I take note of what others have and I don’t.
I’m not smart enough, pretty enough, organized enough, caring enough, independent enough and it goes on and on.
If I was kind to myself I would accept the fact that I’m work in progress and it’s o.k. to not have it all together.
On Facebook I am an administrator of a group that has gone quiet. I have been wanting to rename the group and give it a new description. I figure that if I change it up and give it some fresh ideas, there will be more activity
I froze last night when I went to make the changes. I can’t lead this group. I don’t have enough skills to carry it through.
This is a group for Christian Moms who would like support with writing posts and creating their blog to be the best it can be. My fresh ideas include question and answer days. Questions about starting a blog, improving blog, promoting and getting more traffic. Questions about how to write a better post and how to build better writing skills. So let me stop right here.
I am just learning all of this myself. I don’t know enough to help others. I have some experience. But who cares? People want answers.
I wrote my friend from this group and told her that I was not going to follow through.
She encouraged me to sleep on it. I went to bed feeling doubtful in my abilities. I felt depressed. I hate feeling this way.
Oh God Please Calm My Anxious Heart.
This morning when I woke up I felt the spirit of God reminding me that I am able because I serve a God who is capable.
He let me know that my weaknesses will become my greatest strengths. He reassured me that I don’t have to be good at everything. If I was good at everything, I wouldn’t need Him nor anybody else.
He gave me the name for our New Facebook Group. Christian Mom Blog Support. God wants me to grow and He is giving me a whole new group of friends to grow with. Friends who will support me. Friends I can support even if I don’t have the answer.
Sweet friends I want to encourage you today to be o.k. with yourself as you are. You have more gifts and talents then weaknesses. Our weaknesses might become our greatest strengths. But we have to be willing to ask for help.
And just for the record. I’m kind of over worrying about what others think of my messy house. And I don’t care as much anymore about others judging me.
And neither should you. Stop hiding because I need you and you need me.
Thank you God for calming my anxious heart and leading me to rename our Facebook Group.
Please come visit us. Share your blogs and posts. Encourage other writers by sharing with us what you know. It’s o.k. if you don’t know everything. Because if you did – you wouldn’t need us. We need you to need us.
Here is the link to Christina Mom Blog Support
Please visit us also at our Facebook group. God Calm My Anxious Heart
We are doing a series about worry, fear, and anxiety. We would love to hear your story and write a post for our blog series. Please email me if you would like to encourage and give hope to other Christians who are struggling in this.
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